New plan of action: Failed.

I only lasted a few hours. I crashed around 2pm and haven’t been up moving since. Some of it might be the pills I’m on, they do have some overwhelming side effects. But I know the migraine is the big cause of my fatigue.

That’s not to say I don’t want to get off the medicines. The ones I can get off, I do want to get off of those. Unnecessary medication can do more damage than good to your body.

I just want to get better and be back at great health again. All this anxiety isn’t good for me.

Tomorrow, I want to try grocery shopping and maybe cleaning one room of my house. Lets see how that goes 🙂

Book Review: Go Set a Watchman

I just started this book Go Set a Watchman, the sequel to Harper Lee’s famous To Kill a Mockingbird, so I will have to update this review later. I just wanted to point out a few things.

Atticus is racist. He did his job regardless of his feelings in the first book. You can be ethical and racist at the same time. I argued this point so many times in school, I just gave up on it.

English teachers, take note: Books are a fluid movement of words to paint a picture. Everyone’s picture will be different, so there cannot be just one interpretation of someone’s reading.

I always thought the biggest troll would be to write a fantastic novel, it becomes a classic and taught in schools everywhere; then on my deathbed say, it’s just a damn book.

Full review soon.

I tried a new plan of action today for myself

Last night, I decided I’m going to take this into my own hands. I have to be my own advocate, right? So I made the decision that when I woke up this morning, I was going to hit the ground running: errands, chores, the like. See how far I could push myself before caving to the couch, this way I know I’m capable of SOMETHING if I start right away.

I did the dishes, made a “grocery” list, did some of my husband’s laundry, cleaned out the backseat of our car from our road trip, cut some boxes down for my husband, and this blog post.

At the moment I feel tired, and my migraine is still intense, but I have a renewed sense of energy. I’m going to try to keep going after I finish this blog post with other chores including my own laundry. Yeck. I hate laundry. Maybe even exercise! Gasp!

I also want to try and clean the kitchen, but I think that might be pushing it a little too far. We’ll see how I feel. I’ll keep you updated!

Migraine solutions and doctors who don’t like them

If you’ve been following me for a while, and I know I’m awful at keeping up with this blog, you know I’m suffering a current level 10 migraine just over two months now. We’ve done infusions of Depakote, Magnesium, IV fluids, Morphine, Anti-nausea medicines, Benadryl, and DHE.

The DHE worked! I only had two infusions, one at the Emergency department when I couldn’t stand it anymore and needed relief. It cut it down to a five, it was so wonderful. I know, a five is wonderful! But it came back to a 10 the next day. Asked my doctor (neurologist) if we could do the DHE like the ED doctor, and she refused, because she said that it’s dangerous because it spikes your blood pressure. Finally got her to do another infusion yesterday, and it brought it up and down but finally settled at a 5 by the end of the day.

I was planning on day 2 of the DHE infusion today, but no. She won’t do another infusion. My blood pressure spiked too high, and she said with my heart conditions, it was too risky. So I left unsatisfied and upset. So my husband and I are looking at headache specialists. Not sure what to be looking for, so we’re researching the heck out of it. But that’s besides the point.

I know the risks of the procedure. I consented to it. The blood pressure always came back down at the end. I felt fine, and I know that’s relative because most of the time problems related to high BP are not felt but from the damage seen.

I realize she’s the neurologist, and a very excellent one, and she is the expert, so I have to concede to her. However, I don’t understand why if I’m being monitored, she is so adamant against it. Aren’t there lasting damages from a long-lasting migraine in some cases? Couldn’t this migraine be damaging my brain right now?

I’m tired of fighting for relief. I’m in a drugged state, it is so hard to do anything, even text people. All I want to do is sleep, and I just sit there in front of the TV, so zoned out that I don’t even know what’s on the screen.

I just want relief, and I hope I can get some if we find a headache specialist.

Book Review: The Butterfly and the Violin (Hidden Masterpiece, #1)

I was recently on a road trip that allowed me to read a few books to review when I got home. The Butterfly and the Violin was a random choice. Sometimes I do judge books by their cover, and this book’s cover called out to me.

It runs along two plot lines, which in itself is difficult to do: Nazi Germany and present time. Kristy Cambron had no problem doing so. She kept me riveted into the story line. It was a beautiful telling of past and present over a piece of history, a painting of a young girl and her violin, that seems so minor but is really very profound.

An art gallery owner, Sera James, is obsessed with finding this painting she saw as a young girl in a Paris museum. She has found someone with a possible connection to the painting and must go convince them to sell it to her. She meets the man who controls the estate while things are in limbo during a family member’s inevitable death. She agrees to look for the painting with him, but she has her own insecurities as she once had her own world crumble around her, and the author ties this with the girl in the painting. While no heartbreak is the same, the pain is real across the board.

There is a romantic sub-plot in the novel, but it is not the forefront. The novel focuses on the history of the “hidden masterpiece” which is ‘the butterfly and the violin’. It has Christian undertones, which suited the novel nicely without being overreaching.

The way the author wove the two lives together was flawless, they intersect like one person. She probes into questions of deep, powerful meaning ranging from love to beauty; but for me the most important one she posed is “Can we hold on to God when we have every reason to give up hope?”

It was a beautifully written book, and I am on the list to check out the second one in the series. I’m very excited.

I give it….. quibbler_100quibbler_100quibbler_100quibbler_100 or four Quibblers.

Mermaid kisses and starfish wishes,

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